Emotional as its my wedding anniversary today!

Didn't know whether to put it on facebook or on here. Put it on here because not a good morning due to my husband's Alzheimer's. Don't want to sound too soft but he forgot to get a card yesterday (which I said we would do because have always done so) but he bought some milk which we didn't really need.

Please don't get me wrong its not the actual card I am upset about its the situation.

Then this morning I said Happy Anniversary to him but he said thats later as he was off to work. I said would you just say Happy Anniversary to me and he said 'Happy Anniversary to me'. He want off to work and I couldn't help shedding a few tears as he really doesn't respond to me in a loving way at all.

I texted my daughter about going to get a card today as he is picking her up later and I just felt like a bit of sympathy, something that I rarely if ever I get. She took my text the wrong way (know that can happen) even though I worded it carefully and just didn't seem to realise that I might find today difficult, tried to explain again not easy. My mum rang and said happy anniversray and I was a little tearful unfortunately as I try not to be and I think she thought I should just be happy.

My husband does lots of strange things (I know we are all different and I have faults) and I try to cope and act like everything is normal but living with someone with Alzheimer's all the time even at its earliest stages is EXTREMELY HARD, and I don't get why people are not being supportive enough or think that I shouldn't have emotions!

I forgive my husband because of Alzheimer's but just wish he could be more normal. He sometimes looks like he is a robot when he does things, my son also said that this week. I don't know why he looks different.

Wish I did just feel happy but I actually feel a bit lonely but proud to say I have been married for 31 years.

Thank you to anyone who will understand what I am trying to put across.

Best wishes REDS